Letting go

I put a lot of pressure on my self, I must say. Especially in the fall when birthdays, halloween, and Christmas are all heavy on my creative shoulders. I feel this burden to be all the wonderful things I hope I can be…making tons of handmade gifts for all those I love, decorating in a simple and beautiful way, creating that “magic of Christmas” feeling for Riley (and now Eleanor), creating/selling lots of jewelry since this is the season of festivals and my highest selling time of the year!

But here I sit…in my messy very unfinished house with no decorations hung and little plans to fix that…only half an idea of what to do for my sweet Ry for Christmas and one last craft festival to squeeze out before the season ends. For once I am letting myself off the hook. I’m doing the best I can. With two sick babes who need lots of snuggles and a very little time on my hands I am letting go of the idealistic Christmas I usually dream of and letting it just be quiet, simple, and hopefully lovely and memorable with my sweetest little babes who need a present, calm momma more than they need elaborate decorations and gifts.